I am.Feb 23, 2018
Mirror, mirror on the wall
You seem to think you know it all
Why do, why do I believe?
You tear me down just to laugh
But if I break your shining glass
I’ll just see pieces of me
Nov. 20, 2017, I posted this quote by Sarah Dessen to my Instagram and Facebook:
"There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only ting left is your own heart. So you'd better learn the sound of it. Otherwise you'll never understand what it's saying."
Can I tell you a secret? I have no idea who Sarah Dessen is or where that quote came from. I’m pretty sure I was googling quotes about following your heart and it popped up.
Regardless of how I found it, the words ring truer today than they did the day that I posted it.
I’ve been practicing minimalism for just over 7 months and in that time, things have gotten really quiet. It’s kind of scary, but also exhilarating at the same time. The scariest moments occur when I think about my goals and dreams. Mostly because they will require sacrifice and force me to trust myself and my gut without fail. The most exciting moments are the ones that teach me something about myself that I never knew or that I was never willing to admit. Often times that means that I cry but other times it makes me smile or even laugh.
Not only am I becoming more confident in what I want, I am also more confident in who I am.
I am Jessica.
I love playing air guitar and air drum and singing at the top of my lungs in the car.
I love to travel.
I am still healing.
I don’t have time for the games.
I love helping people, but I’m often frustrated that they don’t take my advice.
I am hella creative.
I never say hella, but thought it would sound cool right there.
I am a nerd.
I am loyal.
I love TV dramas and romantic comedies, but I am terribly unromantic.
I am broken, but I understand that so is everyone else.
I am selfish and surprisingly giving at the same time.
I am an idea machine but the execution will be a little shaky.
I am emotional and wear my heart on my sleeve, but I still don’t know how to react when other people cry.
I am sarcastic.
I am scared of not being enough, but no longer willing to live in fear.
I am competitive.
I am funny.
I am scared of losing it all in the blink of an eye, but no longer willing to live in fear.
I am happiest while dancing naked in my apartment.
I am not embarrassed that I just published that fact to the world wide web.
I am evolving and won’t apologize for blossoming into a better version of myself everyday.
Who are you?
Wherever you are right now, take 5 minutes to just be with your thoughts and see where it takes you. What did you learn?
Fool me once, shame on you
Fool me twice, that’s what you do
It’s time to change up the game
Can’t be that little girl no more
The one you cut up on the floor
I’m done with all the shame